Find yourself.

You say you gotta go find yourself
You say you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me
i'll wait for you

So i'll let you go, i'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, i won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
i'll be here for you

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

-Come back to me, David cook-

Everything has its TIME

I woke up today realizing that life doesn't owe me anything, i need to let go and enjoy the ride. Life is as beautiful as it is.

I'm blessed beyond measure to be given a second chance with life. The accident gave me a whole new perspective about life and what's important.I've so much that I want to do in life.I want to see the world for instance.I want to taste, feel and see pretty things in life that God has blessed us with.

Read Ecclesiastes 3 this morning.

" A time to heal"
" A time to gain,
And a time to lose"
" A time to keep,
And a time to throw away"
" A time to mourn,
And a time to dance"
" A time to break down,
And a time to build up"
" A time to embrace,
And a time to refrain from embracing"
" A time to weep,
And a time to laugh"
" A time to speak"
" A time to LOVE"

Those verses were like comfort food.grr..
I find myself resting in this unexplainable peace. It's like someone holding my hands, telling me that everything will be okay, becca.it will be.

I finally find myself understanding the word "work in progress". God's not done with me. I find myself being tested.Purified.Painful but I know i live. I live to document this life that I've been given and how I can be an impact for HIM.Somehow i find this obscure joy in me lately as God unfolds and reveals who He has made me to be.It's all part of HIS great plans.

There's a season and time for every purpose.All other things are vanity of vanities.

I'm rest assured that in the grand scheme of things, God will make everything beautiful in His time :)

I just want you to know who i am

And I don't want the world to see me
cause I don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who i am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

[Goo goo dolls-Iris]

pieces.

I thought i knew what i've always wanted out of life.everything seem surreal for a moment.only for a fleeting moment and God decides to take it all away from me. I've lost a part of me.The part that i held on so dearly onto.

What do i want in life now?

I will and will continue to seek with all my heart and find everything that I need and want out of life. (Jeremiah 29:13)

They say time heals all wounds.Would that shattered pieces and dreams ever be fixed?

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. (Psalm 147:3)

I just need to allow HIM to work on those pieces, those broken dreams.That's the hard part.I need to.I will stand up again.I know i will.

What's enough?

When's enough ENOUGH? you tell me.

Is loving someone so much enough?Is giving your all and your best ever enough?

Is putting your heart out to bleed ever enough?

It's never going to be enough

and it will never be enough.